is it stupid to expect that after you break down and tell someone you have post traumatic stress disorder, they are going to want to help you ( Read more... )

i am disappointed ( Read more... )

im really freaking out and there is no one i can go to

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i just IMed / called prettymuch all of my friends and not a single response
i need to stop telling people things that make me invest myself in them

its so hard to know who to trust
when and where and why and how
i think its time to hide away for a little while
try to convince myself it'll be there when i come out

and if its not

then i can rebuild?

in a lot of ways, i am really, really lucky. i know a lot of really good, lovely, fun, amazing, fun people. and i'm pretty good too.

it sucks that when something goes sour people always feel the need to desecrate the memory of it. since she said we never really knew each other that well, i've been thinking about last year a lot.

( dear s____, )

i might not go to this school anymore in a few days
but i'm too tired to panic

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