I’m happy that school is just around the corner, not so much for the academic part of it, rather for the access to various support networks that I didn’t have this summer. Don’t get me wrong, all of you (my friends) have been there for me and I’ll always be appreciative of that.

Allen, my counselor is teaching me the importance of independence ( Read more... )

I like to have the future laid out for me, or at least a general road map so I won’t get lost in this world.

This year definitely needs to be about my well-being and rejuvenating my soul.

The first thing to do is continue seeing my counselor at home, he’s been extremely insightful and now it’s just a matter of putting his thoughts into actions.

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After confronting the miscarriage head on this May, I didn't think I would be strong enough to be able to work around kids. Although, I have to say that by working with my youth group was probably one of the best experiences I've had in a long time. Most of them have intellectual disabilities, but they are the most kind and hardworking students ( Read more... )

Today I received acknowledgment and responsibility to certain events that happened in the past. It does mean something as I can find some closure, even though learning about some events that were not true is unfortunate to say the least.

Also, as a way to recognize my pregnancy loss, I’ve decided to get a tattoo. I want to get a single small rose ( Read more... )

Nobody understands me like my Dad does... and I'll always love him for that.

Last night when I was cleaning my room he came downstairs to check on how I was doing. My Dad knows that there is something that is affecting my well-being because he can see the sadness inside of me. I'm almost positive that he knows that the misery that I'm experiencing ( Read more... )

I just wanted to say that I need to express my feelings… although; I understand that the subject material might make some people uncomfortable or offended. However, it’s not my place to take care of other people’s reaction to my own healing process. This is my journal and my own outlet to communicate my feelings and it’s also a means to see how I’m ( Read more... )

Obviously this year will be a time to heal, as I've been through some distressing situations thus far. Although, positively speaking, it'll be a learning process and I will be a stronger person because it.

Hopefully, by the end of the school year I'll be ready to tackle what is next and because I like to create my destiny/future, I thought that by ( Read more... )

All love that has not friendship for its base, is like a mansion built upon the sand...

My last two counseling sessions went fairly well.

When I first talked to Alan ( my counselor ) about the circumstances surrounding the miscarriage, the first thing he said to me is that I went through a distressing event and that many people cannot understand, let alone appreciate the emotional, physical and mental impact it can leave on a woman. ( Read more... )

This journal entry is something that I need to do for myself.

In order for me to heal as best as I can, the truth must be accepted on my part.

Seven months ago, I got pregnant. When I missed my period for three weeks, I knew something had changed. This was confirmed by two positive home pregnancy tests. To be completely honest, I was really happy ( Read more... )