I realized that my poor ol' livejournal is a place I come to vent my feelings. Its been more and more that way. But I think I really need to start making an effort in my life of being more positive ( Read more... )

There was a girl at my work today who had recently gotten married. She is 19! And she looks much younger! And just seeing that she is married for some reason makes me feel like I am running out of time. Ethan and I have been half-heartedly trying for a baby for almost a year now. I am getting more and more discouraged and sad as the months go ( Read more... )

Recently Mom and I were hanging out, and I brought up how day light savings was coming up. She told me that when i was in 1st and 2nd grade, and that in the fall, probably right after daylight savings, when I would get home from school she would get a snack in me and then I would pass out. She said they normally couldn't get me to wake up to eat ( Read more... )

God, I am so lonely tonight! I haven't not had Ethan during a Saturday night in a long time. I was hoping to hang out with my sister, but she, of course, made other plans. So here I am, a married woman, sitting along at on a Saturday night. I feel like such a lame-o. Mom and dad are out of town, so I can't bug them. CeCe is super sick. Ethan ( Read more... )

Today is soooo boring at work. Actually, this whole week has been slow. I just want this week to be over with so I can start my three day weekend. Work a day, have a day off, have my birthday and work, work a half day, and then get another three day weekend! Unfortunately, there is more moving to be done this weekend. I spent last saturday ( Read more... )

Right now I feel like I am in high school. Its like the feeling you get when you smell something or see something and it brings back memories of another time, and the feelings you felt along with them. This time, I feel like I felt in high school. So much disappointment and hopelessness. So much, that I'm here, once again, pouring my heart out ( Read more... )

Ugg, I so don't feel good today. Nauseousness and a little headache. My boobs hurt when I take off my bra when I get home, so I have to immediately put on a sports bra. Last night only one was hurting though. It hurts even now when I press on it. I'm hoping I'm something that I don't want to mention so that I don't jinx it and that I don't ( Read more... )

Ok, back to my 4th of July. After we were done helping we had lunch and meandered for bit at the mall. Ethan needed a long-sleeve black shirt. We hung out for the rest of the day at the park. Of course, sans my little sister, who is now back with Gordon which means without her big sister again. Which leads me to my next topic. I was really ( Read more... )

The 4th of July was such a great weekend. I was thinking that I would get so much done since Ethan was going to be gone setting up fireworks. I was so wrong. Friday after work I gathered craft supplies and then hung out with the hubby. Saturday I got up early and picked strawberries with mom. I then worked on all the ATCs for awhile. I ( Read more... )

I have been so tired and moody lately. Last night it led to a big blow out with Ethan and I. Though, everything is fine now, we got it all settled. We had a huge yelling fight and I'm sure the neighbors got a good show. Awesome. I haven't been sleeping well for a couple of weeks. We went to Ocean Shores this past weekend and it definitely ( Read more... )