for the past three months i've pushed the idea of my father's death to the back of my head, constantly telling myself this event was just something i had to deal with as part of my life. lately, this has not been the case. yesterday in chuch i wanted to BAWL when i didn't see my dad in the choir and when they sang a song about heaven. i ( Read more... )

so drew and i both got all dressed up and headed towards west campus to Mike's wedding...Mike is Drew's best friend. there was a fajita buffett, then groom's cake, then dancing with Drew, and one final dance with the Groom himself! it was nice to finally meet a lot of Drew's friends. he's the best bf i could ever, ever ask for AND he picked me ( Read more... )

Memorial Day was soooo fun! now if only i could remember parts of it:


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its ON! after much thought about UT, my friends, how amazing nights are in Austin...my city is my home again. YAY i'm moving back to Austin. it's hard to leave my mama all alone in this house, but we all agreed and it's what she wants for me. i've wanted to be a longhorn since i was in 7th grade, i have a job in Austin just waiting for me, i ( Read more... )

tonight i saw Recover in some random, ghetto yet not so ghetto club in McAllen. i cant really describe it. in austin they are my boys..guys i consider good friends. tonight it was like they were some band i was seeing for the first time. i was on the front row singing every word while tons of teens behind me pushed me into the stage and yelled ( Read more... )

first day of laying out in the pool! i forgot how amazing just floating around in cool water was. 3rd day at the gym..that is going veddy well ( Read more... )

the depression has hit..and in a big way. and not the one about my father. i'm at peace about my dad. he was the most wonderful person i've ever met, i'll miss his laughter and bright smile, but i have his memories and know he's in a better place ( Read more... )

sara said it best - it's CRAZY how quickly life changes. a few weeks ago the biggest concern of mine was buying a nice sack for me, rory and the Reco boys to smoke off of, laugh together, make trips to 6th w/ andra and company, our harry potter party. now i've lost the dearest man, am living in the valley taking care of my momma, going to school ( Read more... )

so it's pretty much set. i'm moving back to McAllen. filled out a transfer application today, got my transcript sent to the college here, are in the works of putting our condo on the market. ugh :( the first thing i thought is how am i going to find someone to marry down here??!!? haha crap valley people :( who knows. i may finish up school in ( Read more... )

the funeral was beautiful. my dad's best friend led the music while his other best friend gave the eulogy. my dad was big in our church choir so there were over 80 in there yesterday and it just sounded amazing. i was truely comforted by the music, the friends, and all there was to say about my dad. i'm trying to think of this not as a loss for me ( Read more... )