things are so much better.
i've got ian, and he makes me feel...idk, wonderful? like im beautiful? giddy?
i have audra back, and that's the best feeling in the world.
i am in love with life.
god, perfect day.
new job.
new boyfriend.
everything.
perfect.
i am so lucky.
:)

bulimia and cutting
depression
i cant escape myself
im trapped inside my head
doing anything to
lose feeling
if only for a moment
i am dizzy
and numb
and broken by what i've done
but i will make it
i will put a smile on my face
because that is what is expected
perfection is all i have to live up to
so what if the pressure kills me?
does no one

there's nothing much to say cause there's nothing to exciting going on recently.

i have a best friend i love dearly

parents who i get along with for the most part

and even my little brother seems less obnoxious

i thank god for blessing me with such amazing people in my life

sometimes i wonder if myspace is worth all the drama. i think to appease my mother, im going to go and delete some of my friends.

in unadilla now. pretty boring. i miss my ashley ball!

not too much to write about. i talked to addison for about 5 minutes last night. it was nice.

i kinda miss that kid sometimes.

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at my funeral : dancing. good music. fried chicken. good and happy memories, no sad stuff. got it? thank u.
<3 cara

i just cant believe someone so young is gone....

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