...breathing...

and trying NOT to stop.

~Jamie~

Please God, for one moment let me feel safe enough not to think and deal with no bad consiquesnces. No matter what you will always be with me. I know this...and thus I move forward to see where this should go. No test will stray me from your existance and your heart. "I carry your heart / I carry it in my heart."

~Jamie~

Why all of a sudden do I have to get this drama?  (She sits in a big pause...just staring at the cursor.  She listens to the stupid chick song "I don't wanna cry" by Mariah Carey.  Nothing but pure emptiness. )  I always think of that study when those babies were tested on how they first learn how to communicate. So that all variables would be ( Read more... )

I still feel like I have some unanswered questions

...but I come back very enlightened.

~Jamie~

I thought of where you were. Hoping you'd chosen not to be apart of this war. Hoping your off fulfilling your dreams. I yelled at someone just the other day. I felt like I hated how I understood that person, but was a chapter ahead. I was right though. Gosh, It's odd where I am right now. I know you'd freak out. And Brian, ....Wow! Who we are are ( Read more... )

I was looking at some old videos that Jaqy and I took while we were living together. It also included some clips from highschool. It's was odd to see myself. Like this stranger I have yet to meet. I don;t live as if my self-esteem should control me, I just view myself through the lenses of my self-esteem. I keep thinking..everytime I see myself ( Read more... )

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I remember crying a little inside for fear of my own religion and my own path. My heart was crushed and scared a little when I saw this in the newspaper. I remember the vision of that, "Three boys Molested by a Priest."  ..That was in High School These events were when I was in Middle School. I remember seeing these as well, not judging just ( Read more... )

we'll have to see what happens tomorrow. :P

~Jamie~

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I realize that my role is to be the therapist but I think my dad needs to realize that I'm not fully certified. At all. I also think that as the problems arise, the more distant I want to be. One day I'll be in another country. I keep thinking boo-hoo thoughts and saying to myself that they'll never notice if I'm ever gone, but they will cause they ( Read more... )