All I know is this...I feel myself shutting down. I feel like not talking about how I feel anymore. For fear of being looked at like I am stupid. For fear of my feelings being taken advantage of...again. For fear of someone going and telling someone that they have no business telling. I feel dumb. Dumb for caring what people think so much. Dumb for ( Read more... )

I realized the other day that I only write in here when I am sad. So, I guess I am sad again ( Read more... )

Well today I found out (AGAIN) that things are not always as they seem. I guess I assumed (well more like, he changed his mind and found his comfortable spot again...) Back to plan B I guess...I was very upset earlier...upset enough to cry at work. But then I realized again that whatever does not kill me and this will not kill me cuz I have been ( Read more... )

Well it is finally true and honest...my ex boyfriend has a fiance...to bad I had to hear it from her mouth...Like they say (and to bad I didnt listen to this earlier) once a DOG always a DOG!!! I stopped caring last year...to bad we had SOME good memories...in the end it would have been so much easier to get over. Now it is even easier...to find ( Read more... )

Its been how long ( Read more... )

I think it has been a year exactly to the day since John and I broke up. I was sitting here thinking about it and the events that happened that day and I got upset. I remember being so hurt and frustrated because he would not explain himself to me about what he did. I was so mad I could have hit him. I dont know why but I have been thinking about ( Read more... )

My F'IN neck hurts so bad right now...I think that is when I know I am under the most stress. This week has been so bad for the most part

Well I shouldnt be THAT upset cuz I HAVE A CAR!!!!!

aNd NoW iT iS tImE fOr SlEeP!!!

I thought today was a good day...but as the day progresses, it just keeps getting worse and worse. I would like to cry because I dont know how to feel right now. I always feel like I have done something wrong when I know I have not, and then in the end I apologize for something that was never there in the first place.

Dont you hate it when you think you know someone and then they turn out to be someone completly different then what you thought they were ( Read more... )

I lied. It did hit me harder then I thought. I wish I knew why. I guess I am just going to have to deal with it. I signed off to restart my computer, not to piss you off. I am sorry for acting immature and saying whatever because I know we talked about that. When I get mad, I get pissy and upset and say things that are hurtful and that I dont mean ( Read more... )