Well today was my first day as a worker!! i actually quite enjoyed the time i spent there and i'm looking forward to going back tomorrow which is good ( Read more... )

Today's a bit crappy really. After having a very long, squirmy, uncomfortable comversation on MSN earlier (cheers Em, it REALLY brightened my day up :p) it's kinda been a bit shit. all i can think about is cutting and how much i want to destroy my skin. It's horrible. i can picture it in my head but for a couple of reasons i really don't want to ( Read more... )

I found this on Lynne's journal. go on folks, fill it in for me ( Read more... )

Well, i officially feel like SHIT!!! i've been home since Thursday and all i've thought about today has been cutting. i've reached the stage where i actually need to cut now in order to retain my sanity. if i can't cut, i don't know what i'll do ( Read more... )

Hi all. Sorry for my lack of updating in recent weeks, my Goddamned fucking computer broke and i haven't got round to fixing it yet so as im' at home this weekend i'm taking the opportunity to update and fill you all in on the last few weeks of my life. Actually, i can pretty much only remember recent things ( Read more... )

Wow, i've made it 3 weeks without cutting. it's an amazing feeling, to have actually got through 3 whole weeks without having the need to cut myself. I can't really think of much else to write tonight, mainly because i've got a splitting headache and can't really focus very well on my computer, never mind. I'll update properly one day soon and ( Read more... )

Well, today is officially my 19th day cut-free! I really do feel that maybe now i've turned a corner and things might be looking up. I'm sure i'll have my down days as well and they'll be damn hard but for now, i'm actually feeling genuinely ok and happy with how things are going. I'm really hoping i'll make 3 weeks without too much of a problem ( Read more... )

Stolen from a million and one other people...

Post a memory of me in the comments. It can be anything you want.
Then, if you want, post this to your journal and see what people remember of you.

I'm curious to know what you all think of me and your main memories of me!

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Well i did it. I actually made a whole 14 days without picking up my blade and i'm now on my 15th. For once i'm thinking about this without terror but almost pride. not in a bad way but i guess cos i've actually achieved something i didn't think possible. In that way the last 2 weeks, although bloody hard, have been totally worth it. I think i'm ( Read more... )

Well, i've done it. for the first time since last July, i have actually amnaged to go for 14 days without reaching for my blade. It feels... odd i guess. In so many ways it's a great feeling of achievement and i'm quite proud of myself. not in any bad way but just in that i've achieved something that i honestly didn't think i would manage ever ( Read more... )