by 18th birthday isn't until next february, but i've already started planning out the tattoos i want. i only want to have a total of three or four.

today was amazing.

more on that later.

no more coke. ever.

no more cigarettes. ever.

i think to many people have forgotten what beauty is. they think that beauty is the model on the cover of a magazine or the girls in their favorite porno. too many people believe that being attractive is the same as being beautiful.

which it isn't.

last night was rad. nothing extra special, but i still had fun. i really like having friends that i can get drunk and play with. we whipped cream fight, and a pillow fight. we watched movies that i don't remember and ate. i was good and only had some salad without dressing.

spring break starts tomorrow. i love leaning out my window and smoking at night when no one else is awake. but i hate smoking. i swore to myself today that i would quite after spring break ( Read more... )

"are you ok?"
"how could i not be ok i have you?" i tried to say but the words just blurbled out. i kissed him hard and hoped that it could do the talking for me.
"i don't want to let go"
"well then don't, i'm not going anywhere without you"

and all i could do was kiss him again.

so this is my first entry in a new journal. reading my last one it dose not even seem like i wrote it. i've changed so much more than my friends in the last year. i was always the immature one before. i guess i'll just always feel kind of left out ( Read more... )