Im so proud of him. To know my best friend Garret was on tv rapping and doing his thing just I dunno I wish I cud show him how happy i am. I mean Its almost like jealousy is among me for at my old school I was on top. No not in popularity I mean I had lots of friends ba Im not even talkin bout dat I mean with my work ( Read more... )

For the first time in my life I have seen a man walk out on his family, and it wasnt his fault. My brother is a good father, a very good father and husband but im sorry hes treated like shit and i wudnt balme him if he took his wifes advice and didnt come bak. But of course he will for he wud neva leave his family even if it is tough. His wife came ( Read more... )

     Whas up??? I kno I sed I wudnt do another entry but w.e today is a special day... Its Lisa's Birthday... Im so happy she's 15 n lookin all cute today wearing my tiara and my birthday girl sholl thang... Oh and we saw each other dis weekend and we neva chill outside of skool usually... Oh and I wanna add a few new people to my journal... ( Read more... )

An online diary has become pointless no one replys and it seems dat no oen even cares... So imma stop boring those with w.e I gotta go

I am living a life at which I’m already dead. Im dead inside and my tears are more frequent than the rain. I am without a family in my family and I have no one to touch my soul and bring me light. I just don’t know nor do I want to have a clue. I walk through hallways at which Im an angel without cause. The rape isn’t the only past memory of which ( Read more... )

Holy Shit!!! Im n so much pain... Ive been sick oll weekend crying and aching and my stomach hurts so bad and Ive been throwing up and ahhh.... I dont even kno wha to say except I aint going to skool probabaly but I cud care less I jus want this pain to go away... SELBY COME HOLD MY TUMMY AND TELL ME EVERYTHING IS GUNNA B OK.... AHHH PAIN PAIN GO

Hey Yall... Today Is Jessicas birthday shes 18 and me jarrod josh jessica and of course the birthday girl jessica are at 11 going to lulus on the beach and are goin ta jus party oll nite long till bout 3am. Im so happy and morrow were going to keep escain... Oh but yeah I still feel really sick and I miss Selby.. Man I feel like im going to throw ( Read more... )

Hey Guys...

Im in the Library and I feel really sick. I woke up wanting to die but yeah I must have thrown up four times today (not thats a need to know basic but hey) just incase I seem irritaed today. Anyways I havent written for a few days. Yesterday I went to the beach and got a indian heart bracelet its so pretty and the night before I got ( Read more... )

I wonder why God made nights so long…. I cant sleep and Im being rapped around a mixture of thoughts that well … Don’t seem to resolve and go away. Of course the memory of the rape is brought back by various things and its really hard and I mean its been 9 months and I still cant except it. I still see him and I still the pain just as when it ( Read more... )

Wow Well already I wasnt have agood day cept the jason news ba wen I came home I found out my brother was n the hospital and if he didnt gte surgery he wud have seven days to live because there was a problem with his spine. Fucking like reliving the movie the ring and shit fucking talkin about he has seven days to live. Hes home and everythings ok ( Read more... )