Last night I made my Final attempt with Selby. I wrote him a note and I wont call nor write nor ne thing until he decides wha he wants to do. I told him I still loved him and oll that good stuff I really ment it and I jus dont understand wha happened to us. I think hes scared becuz I cut... Well used to I guess I would be kinda scared to but Im jus ( Read more... )

Everything is so fucked up... I dont know how much more I can take.. Why are people the way they are. Im just sick of it. Im not even going to bother telling you what happened because Im sure who ever you are... U dont even care ur probabaly here by random or just because I told u to see my diary sum times and this is the time u desided to come. I ( Read more... )

Im listening To Why by Avril... Which I already have displayed the lyrics to in my journal... Ne way I hate this feeling. Im not angry in fact Im jus blind. Blinded by the tears falling from my eyes. He makes me feel a way I never feel and a feeling no one can place upon me but the feeling is slowly fading into the distance of our voices. I miss ( Read more... )

I jus dont kno ne more. Selby and I are still not speaking and I find myself still dialing his number wen I kno oll Imma hear is the operater say "the number your trying to reach is temperaily disconnect". I jus dont kno ne more I dont wanna break up wit him... N if I do I wont nor have anyone else. Hes the only one but I jus am so worried and ( Read more... )

As Lisa always says stay away from the wall.. Well Im infront of a different kind of wall and its the back of my mind. I lost my best friend and I always do. First there was ashley and my rents made me move and I loved her I really did. Then there was Kristen my new yorkern Biscuit who I also love in a friendship way but were seperated by many ( Read more... )

Im pissed and to top it off Im sick. Today I woke up in pain wanting to die because I couldnt move and to add to the sucksation on my life Selby thinks I broke up wit him wen I didnt n becuz he thinks were ova Im ova here a mess becuz today WUD BE our six month anniversary. Congragulations to... Me... Yesterday me n my mom got into a really big ( Read more... )

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Ok well I accidently closed my journal while writing in it so I guess I have to start oll over again... Today I jus hung out cleaned my room and cashed in last months modeling check which I wont be receiving again since I quit... Ne ways I checked my mail n saw My friend Jenna n Krissy send my sum ganstafied pictures from Ny. Jen n da brownish ( Read more... )

Its 10:00 n I feel like its 1am... I just drank sum Punkers Sour Apple smoked n ate a hole bunch of doritoes... Im jus chillin I jus watched White Castle it was funny n tight. Oh yea It turns out Selby hasnt called me cuz he thinks I broke up wit him so um I dun see whas up wit dat I still havent gotten ahold of him but Debbie sed he came up ta her ( Read more... )