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There is something to be said about quitting while you're ahead. Getting out while you still can. Leaving before you're left ( Read more... ) -
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Night out at the bar, had a good time I guess, but not feeling too good about myself lately. Just don’t think it’s the scene for me. Seeing attractive guys and knowing they’d never take a second glance at me makes me not even want to go out at all. I just come home and crawl Into bed alone and feel sorry for myself, and I hate everything about it. ( Read more... ) -
When you least expect it
This story starts 76 days ago, on June 22nd, 2013, actually, a few days before that. Shortly after Christmas last year, I deleted my Facebook account in attempts to purge my life of the things that were reminiscent of last year's transgressions. I was off the grid for a few months, and then (at the beginning of March I think?) I rejoined the social ( Read more... ) -
What a difference a year makes
There appears to be a cycle in which I write in this journal for a few months, and then something happens, or something distracts me and I forget about it. And then a year later, I rediscover it, and read back through the previous times posts and decide I should start writing again. I like this little cycle. I hope that Livejournal never goes ( Read more... ) -
July 10
I’m laying here in bed, feeling it. This incredible desire to say it came over me. I knew I shouldnt. But I had to talk to him. It’s late. I shouldn’t call. I’ll wake him probably. I just want to hear his voice. No. I want him here. In my arms, next to me in bed. I want to wake up next to him everyday forever and always. I’ll text him, that’s close ( Read more... ) -
Balance
I'll start this post by saying that I am at work, killing time between phone calls. So if my train of thought seems to meander, it's probably because I got interrupted with actual work that I am supposed to be doing. Let's see, where to begin ( Read more... ) -
Daylight savings
What an exhausting, but good weekend. Friday evening I came home from work and was basically planning on hitting the couch and watching the SU game. I had a miserable week at work, I'm struggling to stay above water at my job lately and I really am losing any ambition to keep treading. Hadn't seen much of Jacob all week, other than Monday night. He ( Read more... ) -
I only want it to begin
So, I'm sure most are familiar with the idea that good things happen when you least expect them, and that you meet the person of your dreams as soon as you stop looking? I had never bought much stock in those types of sayings until now. I am a believer ( Read more... ) -
Good Day
I feel like I am always inclined to write in my journal when I have a bad day, so how about the opposite this time. Yesterday was a really good day overall. Nothing special happened, but I felt really good when I went to bed. I got up and went to work in the morning like usual. Even though I was running late, I still looked really put together. I ( Read more... ) -
Wreck of the Day
Today is one of those days where I feel like I really couldn't catch a break if my well-being depended on it. Ironically, it sort of does. Money sucks. To those people who say that money doesn't buy happiness, they clearly had too much of it. Money may not buy happiness specifically, but I feel it would give peace of mind, which for me personally, ( Read more... )