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53 Days
So I'm very proud of myself. It has now been 53 days since I last cut myself. I must say, that this has probably been one of my longer stretches. I'm proud of myself though. -
Two Days
It has now been two days since I last cut. I'm proud of myself. I ended up telling on myself to my therapist and actually had myself admitted for an overnight stay at the local psychiatric emergency services unit...also known as PES. Anyways, I think a night of knowing that no matter what I felt I wasn't gonna be able to get away with harming ( Read more... ) -
Weekend Report
Well, this weekend went well...I mean, Friday I checked in with my therapist and let her know about my cutting again. She took my blades from me and I promised her that I wouldn't buy any new ones. So far, I've kept my promise. I didn't go and buy any new razors. Although, I sure thought about it. I also thought about SI-ing myself in another form ( Read more... ) -
Can't Stop
How can one feel two things that are completely opposite to each other as the same time about the same thing? I have a desire to stop doing this to myself, because I know it's not "right" and I know I'm not supposed to do it. But at the same time, I want to do it over and over again. I want to do it better, and deeper and harder...all the time, ( Read more... ) -
Relapse of Behavior
Well, I did it. I gave in to the demons within. I cut. It helped...but now I feel like crap because of it. I feel like a freak once again and I feel like an idiot. The worst part of it is that I will probably do it again. I'm so sick. -
OnCe AgAiN
So it's been awhile since I've done the whole online journal thing, but I figure what the hell. I'm on the computer constantly, I only write by typing and it does me good to keep a journal. It feels useless to write things down in a journal that I never show anyone, so I might as well, put it here where maybe someone can read it and relate to what ( Read more... )
