new journal finally........

http://www.livejournal.com/users/MarqueElHermoso .

add me.

in IL and it is flying by. i can't wait to come back to AZ. i need the band, tia, my friends. oh man. it's only friday. well i am out for now, but it is nice to get on a computer for the first out here. i love you.

i miss her....

she makes me incredibly happy and makes me feel loved. amazing.

what a weekend. i have felt too many emotions. first off it started with an amazing practice and my beautiful girlfriend came over with lauren and we just practiced and showed them songs. well we went outside and hung out, and then tia and lauren decided to go to their friend alyssas house. they were going to hang out and then meet us at our house ( Read more... )

it's eating me alive on the inside and i can't seem to speak. i have things on my mind, but i won't bother others. such a kind person i am. wrong.

who are any of you anymore? honestly, there are so many friends i have lost in matters of seconds. i have everyone in the band and some others that i have. everyone else.. who are you? i don't even talk to anyone anymore. somethings you people do make me sick. i'm sorry. i did slip for 2 weeks, but your all making a life out of it. hypocrits ( Read more... )

let's see. everything is pretty well. the band is rocking hard. garrett is amazing. his voice just shoots holes in the wall. danny.. i can't lie, i love him. he is the funniest kid ever. we all hung out last night at the driving range. us and our "shmoogs". hahaha. i love danny. marto, still ripping it up and just getting better, i love him and i ( Read more... )

oh man, i came to a conclusion. i'm still alive. i am just getting over the worst sickness in the world. i had the worst cold/flu for the past two days. day 3 and i just have a soar throat. if anyone called me yesterday from 1-8pm, i was honestly praying to stay alive. i was so sick, i couldn't talk, i couldn't move nothing. i think i over dosed ( Read more... )

i don't want to die, i don't want to kill, i don't want to kill, i don't want to die.

thank you. it's stuck in my head.

i feel like tihs again. shoot me?

.............please