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paranoid on top of stress and anger... f*** this crap

what really sucks is this paranoia is the type the usually ends up true somehow, so i guess i just sit back and wait...

oh look, the insane rage continues.... pardon me while i destroy something... if i make it thru today it'll be a miracle, making it thru the whole week doesn't even seem remotely possible right now... it'll be a miracle if i survive without hurting myself or something somehow

i'd apologize for the depression and pessimism, but, oh well

so totally , completely, utterly pissed off... don't worry about why, it doesn't matter why, and i don't want to talk about why... i just am

I'm leaving work and going home to hide... a nice bubble bath with some school reading is what's on the horizon for me..... i need to hide: i'm in a fun goof y mood, and for some reason very flirty but my Baby (londonfenix) is in clinicals all night, so i'm sequestering myself since she's the only one i want to flirt and be playful with! i'm sure more school ( Read more... )

( i owe y'all an update, and this is all i could think of to write about )

edited...found a few that i answered incorrectly, and i forgot to add one of my own... so here it is again, with an updated mood as well, haha

stolen from rodeoncowgirl

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i have problems, seriously. i've been reverting to a state of paranoia and weird behavior that i cannot explain again. i get on edge about one stupid little thing and then the little Oliver Stone in my head starts concocting all of these little conspiracy theories and they pervade all of my thought processes. I don't know what started it, but it ( Read more... )

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This has been one of the longest days of my entire life. I would give anything for it to just be over right now. Either that or maybe i could do something right, but that doesn't seem likely. Also, maybe i can stop feeling like a huge, pathetic asshole. One can only hope.