As long as the big E is not my friend may the heavens open up and smite her. Let nothing good befall her. May she be uglier and more disgusting than she is now. She deserves no respect from anyone. Tired of the anti Christ influence she has.

Fewer gifts this year from me. The big 4 never gave me anything but grief. I wish they would do something special for me. Doubt it though.

I hope j cares but with e as a friend I doubt it because her evilness has spread through all those people. All I want is a friendship. But I guess they are too worthless to care.

I lost weight to hang with Jen. To try to please her. Now to lose weight for myself. My own battles.

I wish I was included with e, d, j and j's antics. Fuck even r is not talking to me. Maybe I should stop trying and hang out with the friends I have. I want to be mad but I am just disappointed at not including me in their fun. I wish the whole lot of them learn a lesson from which they will regret not having me around. Erin is a flat out racist ( Read more... )

Maybe I should delete twitter ig and FB apps for a week. I doubt anyone will give a shit.

This is my free zone on the internet. No one knows about this account or gives a shit. Yay?

Really got to stop reading the posts by those two. It really offers me zero benefit to read them. It brings me down and just stirs up questions about the why not me and why mes.

I will still give gifts to d and j this year because deep down they still give a shit regardless if I got nothing from them last year. I mean a kiss would have been nice. Oh wells shit happens. Gotta move. Still spent more from on Erin and got all hate.

I want to be friends with strong women because they have lots of people around them. They are strong and are multifaceted. Wish I had more female powerful women to hang and asked to hang out with.