it's pouring out.
that kind of rain that cleanses.
wipes away everything
clean slate.
fresh start.
rebirth.

she is cleaning off her patio to make room for my grill.

i can't wait to cook for her.

i think taco bell has sedatives in it.

i want to nap in a hammock for the rest of the day.

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my parents filled the pool in with dirt
yes... dirt!!!

childhood is GONE
buried under rock and loam.

they left the concrete perimeter tho.
go figure...

sigh

in a few years i can make it a tennis court.

if my brother doesn't stop dancing and singing and get dressed,
so we can leave this god forsaken house,
i am going to kill him!!!

ahhh.... home at last!!!

this morning i woke reaching for you
i wanted to curl around you
bury my face in your hair
wrap my arms around you and pull you close
no air between us
skin on skin
bliss

you were not there.
sadness.
sigh.

i turned over
my mind wrapped around the memory of you
happiness.

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day 2

so, before i left, s gave me a stack of envelopes.
8 to be exact. one for each day! to open while i am gone.
i didn't tell her... but it made me cry.
how did i get so lucky?

boston...

i spent the greater part of yesterday on a plane to the east coast

leaving leaving leaving.

going home?

home.

sigh...

where is home?

if it is where the heart is... then i am now torn in two.

i miss her