well, i'm going home ( Read more... )

i love that communication with you is so easy.
i love that you get me
and hear me
and really really listen.

thank you....

for you

i'm starting to feel more human.

alone time is good....
very very good.

to be in my own space is good...
very very good.

to be still is good...
very very good.

i like missing her.
i like looking forward to tomorrow...
to seeing her smiling eyes.
to holding her to me.

sigh.

desire is good...
very very good.

i like her...

it scares me.
i'm afraid i will sabotage this.

where's the struggle that i have always had?
where is the "i have to win her"
"i have to prove i am worthy of love"

things are too easy.
no drama.
all ease.

it scares me.

i like her.

i'm home again.... familiar surroundings....
i've missed my bed... and my cats... and me.

i've missed alone time... time to think... and breathe... and be.

it's nice to be 'home'
or is it.

i feel sad and happy.

content and melancholy.

loved and alone.

what am i doing?

i'm having a moment ( Read more... )

i need your help ( Read more... )

wow.

what a day.

just wow.

to top it all off....

i just turned my clock radio on... to set my alarm for tomorrow...

bring me to life is on.

my song to s.

somewhere... someone is watching my right now... drinking coffee... and laughing

my head is splitting open.... i have a vision of the movie scanners ( Read more... )