come out fighting with your rattle.

i miss pieces. i get angry with myself. i project it onto others, its like an itch that i need to scratch. i should change. in a lot of ways. i hurt people when i don't mean to....or maybe i do, maybe its because secretly (not anymore), being loved just isnt my cup of tea.

i don't know why, but i find it easier and more appealing to write in this thing when i'm not home. maybe i have more to say, or maybe i'm just more willing to say it. i'm glad it's the weekend, i kind of needed a break from...everything. i hope everyone had a good st.patrick's day, i was pretty bummed at first because i kind of wanted to be ( Read more... )

If I could fix myself, Id.........but its to late for me" says:
uh-oh, Jess is going to hell
From this moment, how can it feel...this wrong. says:
i dont believe in hell
"If I could fix myself, Id.........but its to late for me" says:
you shouldnt have to, we live in it .

Still awake on a winters day ( Read more... )

Ok. Now how in the fuck did i escape 'Gods' wrath? i mean of all people...

how cheap.

all in all this was a goodweekend ( Read more... )

so my brothers mad at me cause he had this job possibly lined up, and i didnt go to the interview, cause i was definitely not in any state to be interviewed. so i could of gone, but i made a judgement call and decided not to. that was pretty responsible of me if i do say so myself heh ( Read more... )

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whenever i start something, and it comes time to finish...it just seems so far away...

in fact then i think "too far away, yea...impossible" and THAT ladies and gentlemen, is how my shit never gets done.

and the worst part of it all is, my reasoning is pathetic.

so...why dont i just change? and get some shit done...

i will, i will....but not

as i look at my life, attempting to stand as objectively in my observations as humanly possible, everything seems so esoteric. everything i love that is. a christmas tree in may for example, its existence lacks a rather necessary application it seems....it simply does not fit. but will that always be the case? maybe not. Too often i let my ( Read more... )