This is just getting to be too hard. I don't know if I'm going to make it another year. I am tired of living. I'm tired of renal failure. I'm tired of red tape. I'm tired of being destroyed. I'm tired of being alone. And most of all I'm tired of hurting. I haven't felt this strongly about ending my life since I was 13 years old. I feel I have no ( Read more... )

Fuck me, am I ever tired. My blood count is at 7.5 which means I need a transfusion, which I am getting today. I am in the middle of moving. I feel very much that I have not been getting enough sleep this past week. Lots of phone calls, lots of running around. Shit. I have two doc appointments tomorrow. Thursday the internet man is coming to ( Read more... )

As if people ever belong to anyone but themselves. And like any of that even matters. We live in a strange world, where machines can replace people. Deal with it. I guess.

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