I made it to south carolina... nerves frazzeled, but alive, and with a truck that still works ( Read more... )

Safe travels. That's all i got as a goodbye. I had tried not to get my expectations up,but for someone who professes still loving me, that was about the most hurtful goodbye i could get. no hug, no kiss, no shake of the hand even, a simple safe journeys, and make sure you leave a check so i can pay the lawyer ( Read more... )

I am scared shitless right now. I don't know if i can do this. I mean, i know that i can physically get there, bt i don't know how well my mind is going to take this. I'm so freaked out right now, and there is nothing i can do that will help to calm me down. i thought that typing it out might help, but i don't know. i just seem to keep writing ( Read more... )

my bags are packed, i'm however, not ready to go. I really want to be gone, but there is this hole where my heart is supposed to be, and it feels like i'm leaving that heart here. But then, was that heart ever full and healthy to begin with? I've put up with so much, shouldn't i be happy that i'm leaving ( Read more... )

Oh gentle winds 'neath moonlit skies ( Read more... )

I saw an old friend of our today ( Read more... )

Go ahead and laugh. Pull out those old tickets that have dates on them. My marriage is basically over. Time to call in all bets and see who won. Because i know you all put a time limit on it. I mean why not. Everyone leaves me. Gives up on me. Hates me for some reason or another ( Read more... )

See, i have this worry. I worry that this separation isn't going to help my marriage. And this very much bothers me for several reasons. First and foremost, I love Mike. Even through all the stuff i endure, i do love him. It frightens me to think of a life without him. I can't even imagine what i would do with myself. Well, that's not entirely ( Read more... )

So, i've decided to make the best of the time i have left with Mike. It doesn't always work, for example, when he gets a new game that he obsesses about when there are things that need done like dinner, but i'm trying ( Read more... )

Mike wants a separation. He wants me to go off and become an adult. that's fine. I just... i want it to start now. I can't keep having him around me all the time. It's driving me nuts not being able to hug him, or do anything to him physically. I'm a physical person, and i enjoy contact, and it's not healthy for me to be denied that. I start to ( Read more... )