It's been almost a year since my last post. Some days it feels like it's been eons, others, mere moments. However, there has been a passage of time, and with it, a new, different outlook on life. Normally I come to this livejournal to bitch and complain, and act emo, but i'm not particularly in that mood. I'm sure i've got plenty to complain ( Read more... )

This is going to be a long post, i apologize in advance ( Read more... )

6 weeks is a long time to not update. I've gone longer, but still ( Read more... )

I'm getting better. I'm in school, i'm finding a job hopefully, i'm doing everything i was doing in Nebraska.... And none of it is good enough. Its too little too late. I'm broken in Mike's eyes, not repairable. I want nothing more than for him to come to me with open arms and love. There is nothing more i want to do than to run to him and give ( Read more... )

So i'm sitting in between classes right now. it's noon, and i've got an hour and fourty five minutes till my next class. yay. i know i said that iw asn't going to post in this thing anymore, but i really don't see any harm that it can do anymore. Mike and i are over. He wants nothing to do with me, and nothing i say is going to change his mind. ( Read more... )

How hard is it to sign someone up for insurance, pick up something at their old work place, and not ignore your still wife ( Read more... )

I seem to be in this deadly choke hold right now. I can't say anything, or it's another point against my record, i can't so much as breathe out of line, or its another point against my record, and my captor, Mike, can go ahead and get away with whatever the hell he wants, because he knows he can with no consequences ( Read more... )

So it's almost 6am and i'm awake and alone in the house. Alone. I don't do that very well. It's different when I knew Mike was coming home, or knew where he was, but not knowing now, knowing he's not coming home, knowing he doesn't want to come home.... it makes mornings like this much harder. Unbearably hard. I long for companionship, that's ( Read more... )

It's now been almost two weeks since i've seen Mike ( Read more... )

I hate it here. Hate is a strong word. I hate the idea of here though. Why i'm here, why i'm feeling the way i am ( Read more... )