The more and more I think about the way drugs affect me and any one around me it really bothers me alot. Even when it comes down to smoking cigarettes. For awhile now Ive brushed it off and make it seem like I am okay with it. It's hard to sit by and watch everyone you know kill themselves. Those who do it will either turn two ways they will ( Read more... )

I've been a real asshole and I'm sorry.

I caused everything for the one thing I can't do right.

I can't really tell what people are thinking.

I fall for people fast.

Well I layed it down and I went too far in many ways. Thats what I thought. I realized I just wanted to know more than that was really there. Those closest to me who have known what has been going on in the past few weeks helped me along with the thought of thinking of having something more. As if the whole truth wasnt there and they were just ( Read more... )

This vacation was jammed packed with a shit load of heartbreak to say the least. I really didnt expect this to turn out the way it did. I am always oblivious to that fact that we are having vacation till about 3 days before hand. So when I found out I thought this will be great I will have a wonderful time and just be able to cool down from ( Read more... )

I feel like crap today. My neck is breaking out with something. It itches non stop. My emotions are like swirling maelstrom and I am just so tired and hate the fact that I have to goto work. Last night I told Damara I hate livejournal. Since everytime I write something positive no one will comment, yet no one will comment ever. So let me just ( Read more... )

I dont know what Im doing sunday. Well today in class I started working more on the start of my site and im super happy. So first off fuck you if you dont like it :-) Especially if you say its a Rob Dobi ripoff. You got to me, you suceeded at life now go kill yourself. Well here it is
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Oh gee, I got a christmas tree . . . It's a pain in the ass

I guess I could say I had a really good weekend. Friday night. I hung out with Heather and we went to the mall to buy her brother Albert a nice birthday present. I had a good time as lame as the mall is. It was nice seeing alot of people I socialize with. It was also nice going there for a purpose. It made the experience alot more enjoyable. After ( Read more... )

Well I dont know how to start this or end this. I guess this really goes out to one person. Im just very confused and very frustrated. I feel as if I get too involved and I dig myself holes. I feel as if I am pushy and rush good things. Yet, it may be nothing when I think its the world. Why is it the littlest things tear me to pieces. Im such a ( Read more... )

Today during last period in art class this freshmen Colin come running up to me and is like " Dan Dan Dan! Some kid is going to blow up the school on Thursday" At first I was amused then, I just thought about how fucked up people are. Colin said the the kid just came from Texas and he's pretty much a big racist biggot and is doing in honor of some ( Read more... )