1. What happend today ( Read more... )

im basically done with myself. i really can't believe how stupid i've been. the one person who treats me better than anyone EVER has, i hurt constantly. i AM a good person. but because he treats me so good i have to push him away, like every other fucking person who trys to get close to me. constantly being a cunt about the dumbest shit gets old ( Read more... )

all guys are shady. not even to fuck you over, but in fear that their past will effect their current situation. i hate being an open book, i feel so exposed. no one gives me the same back. i know im not the only one who has feelings. or whatever ( Read more... )

YOU ( Read more... )

latley things have been going pretty well. me and brian are doing really good. i don't really hang out with anyone, which is pretty depressing. i miss having a best friend.

i need to make more money.

i really have nothing to write about.

so...its 12:15 am and i wish i was out somewhere with some hot bitches getting wasted and being rediculous. but instead im sitting at my computer drinking wine. sweet. things are sorta working themselves out, the situation isn't exactly what i want right now. but i think it will do. my tattoo hurt like a bitch, but i think i was a trooper about it ( Read more... )

its is sunday september 24th, and me and brian aren't together. isn't this what i wanted?? guess so. don't ask me about it.im getting my first tattoo tonight. im pretty estatic about that. but sleeping at night is gunna be tough.

i've been feeling indifferent about the important people in my life and i really don't know what it is. i feel like my mind is so cluttered with old problems leaving me feel apathetic about everything. its like i can't get excited about anything or have fun. i really just wanna be 18 years old and not care about little things, and think so much ( Read more... )

its time to start making some changes. for real this time

(Anonymous)
2006-09-10 04:48 pm UTC (link) Select
but you're showing it off too? just in a different way. everyones fake to this idiot: im not 'showing it off'. im not proud of it in anyway at all. it actually terrifies me. you probably don't even know me ( Read more... )