God damnit. I want it to go away. It won't fucking go away. It still hurts so god damn much. It's driving me fucking crazy. It always does. It has never stopped. It won't fucking stop. I can be perfectly fine one minute and the next minute I'm a nervous fucking wreck who can't even take a piece of gum from Joel, he has to unwrap it for me and ( Read more... )

Prom sucks, outside of Jimmy, Joel, Sarah, Alaina, and Andrea, of course. Jimmy's hair kicked ass. Besides that, it sucked. I just got really upset, which was to be expected, but that was my god damned chair between Alaina, Andrea, and Jimmy. Never think it is a good idea to avoid seeing someone you are in love with walking out with someone else on ( Read more... )

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This title speaks for itself. It grows tougher to live with each day. Not to mention how everyone just assumes that i has past. Well I have news for you, it hasn't. Each time it resurfaces it becomes worse than the time before. It doesn't make it any easier that my closest friends are always with her. I don't care who reads this and who doesn't. I ( Read more... )

It seems crazy to most people as to why I still hold on. Very few understand, as to be expected, it has been 4 months. I can hold it together for the most part most of the time now, but that doesn't mean I'm not feeling it by any means. Sometimes my friends catch me staring off to space as I am reminded of her by something, whether it be big or ( Read more... )

The Cult - Painted on My Heart ( Read more... )

This is an original song by your's truly. Feel free to tell me what you think about it ( Read more... )

Slipknot - Vermillion Part 2 ( Read more... )