Sometime next week I am going to get my thyroid checked. Someone suggested there might be something wrong with mine. I'm trying to get my life in order, I am just feel so poopy all the time. To the point where I want to constantly complain. I don't want to complain, not out loud, not in my head, not anymore.

I just figured out what is wrong with me and what issues I need to address when I start going to therapy. I am codependent. It all makes sense, my lack of friends, lack of self esteem, lack of communication. This could be a big problem only because I am positive I am in love with Matt, but all the signs of codependency say pretty much that you ( Read more... )

annie hall scares the shit out of me.

I know this sounds creepy, but I was lurking on facebook and I found my step sister's wedding pictures. It is so weird to me that she sees my biological father as her own. The fact that my own father would rather play that role to someone else of no actual blood relation confuses me more than anything. My life is great without my real dad, but i ( Read more... )

I am excited for spring. i love it so much. I love baby animals. I love blossoming trees.
Today I bought two pairs of shoes, a purse, a case for my mom's real silverware at the thrift store for $7. I also saw a picnic basket that had straps so you could wear it like a backpack. It had a cutting block and a cheese knife. oops, I forgot to mention it ( Read more... )

I am on my new computer and I am downloading Missing Persons. Life isn't always bad.

wanna iChat?

I would really like to tell everyone in my life what I think about them, that includes everyone. I want to tell my parents how much I love and appreciate them. I want to apologize for everything I have done wrong. I want to tell my father that I am ok. I want to apologize to the people that I have made fun of, but never really got to know. I want ( Read more... )

I have been doing this livejournal thing for over five years and I seem to have forgotten how to even use it. From time to time I like to parouse through old entries to find nothing. Nothing of interest. Or of substance. God, I hate the way I write. And there I go again. My life is overflowwing with negativity that all I can do is sit in my room ( Read more... )

i am moving home at the end of the month so i can move to seattle in the fall. i would love to keep my kitty, but that just isn't a possibility. if someone wants or knows of someone who wants a pretty kitty, please, please call me.

if i can't move back into my parents' i'm jumping in front of a train.

the end.