fucked ( Read more... )

I'm up to early
sooo quite....can't even hear frances breathing...hang on...no shes fine..*phew*
talking to nick on msn..soo quite here.........only one on msn and.....no sounds...no now iains on..yay..god i'm bored...attculy i'm not bored i'm confused..nevermind it
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*bLeEpY~BlEeP~bLeEp*
buetful bleeps

bored

iains having a tough time...i'm tryign to help i hope iam ( Read more... )

got the fucking bank sorted out...bloody wanting and fannying for the bursary money...grrr ( Read more... )

this was the fist wendsday in ageessss that wasn't boring as fuck..cause we didn't haev to use that crap modle in life drwaing alll day!Did sum okayish work today..which is a change ..i'm gettign the hang of this drawing the body stuff ( Read more... )

dyed hair..yes AGAIN..ermm not sure ummm
got me glasess...ermm not sure...geek
oh hay ho
had a really ncie day with frances today we eat and sat in the sum it was nice and fun..dear god why don't i do poarty?

Tickles dad just called me..he's read my juornal...feels odd....never thought an adult would read this shite..buggertion..this thigns full with my thoughts and well quite resently tickle....all tickle really...god, he must think i'm insane or obessed...or both.i feel like such a selfish kid..me complaing and moneing about how I feel about tickles ( Read more... )

Every things fucked

don't want to feel this way

hate what i see, what i see is me, always the same dull face and eyes

hate myself
why do people tlka to me..i wouldn't tlka to me..i'm grumpy and crap..ugly..fat
ohhhh the list gose on
i hate her! helen the messeruper ruins me and my life and petes getting draged down with her.

i want to be free from all this, feel from all the upset.
feel alone empty and cold
no one to tlak to no one understands