yeah its that time of year again. unfortunately I dont think I will be happy this year during the holidays. I've noticed how F A K E a lot of people are and I dont like it. I'm missing mom terribly, and it seems like she was the glue to this family. I barely hear from my brother and father and step mother and when I do its only for like 5 ( Read more... )

I've had to take a long hard look at myself as of late and I realized that its going to be a long L O N G time before I am ever even a small resemblance of myself before mom passed. I've tried to help a lot of people and I havent even thought of myself. I have put EVERYONE ahead of myself. Everytime I listen to U2's with or without you, or ( Read more... )

Last night was a lot of fun. I honestly used to feel like I was constantly being fed to the shark tank everytime I went to alchemy for like almost 3 months. So I have altered myself. I avoid certain people who bring drama and I talk to new people. I have come to realize that no matter how hard you try to be friendly with EVERYONE, someone ( Read more... )

Almost a couple of months before my mother passed, I started having these bad feelings that something was going to happen with her. A couple of months later she passed. Now I am starting to get those feelings again, and I am worried about my step father jon. He misses my mother terribly as much as I do if not more (which in and of itself is ( Read more... )

ok, Sometimes are better than others. its been a little over a month since my mother has passed. yeah I have been depressed, and it also seems like the little things set me off from time to time. I guess its because I am on edge and I do miss my mother a lot. Tonight was the second time I have cooked for my step father and I. For those ( Read more... )

I know I can be annoying from time to time but my friends are there for me no matter what. Alchemy is a fun place with the exceptions of a minor annoyance of kris. I've learned to ignore her since she likes being a petty child. and in truth that is exactly what she is a 2 year old stuck in a 20 year old's body. why I tried repairing a ( Read more... )

thursday was a relaxing night at alchemy. friday was friday. Saturday night I dj'ed at midnight, I was VERY shakey but I managed to do very well ( Read more... )

this saturday night I will be spinning for midnight once again. So while I am busy burning cd's for this sat I will take this moment as a shameless self promotion ( Read more... )

midnight was fun, a tad bit lighter than usual, I was VERY glad to see spookykitty, and ver regretful that I did not spend as much time as I had WANTED to, but all in all was a good night until I listened to a blank tape that I foundrecently. on the way home I popped it into my tape deck in the car and found out it was from my mothers service ( Read more... )

of help. this coming weekend of july 30th, I need help. I need the help of only one person, I need help painting one room in my house. I can offer food and alcohol as payment. please respond here if anyone can help

Thanks

~E