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Sometimes I sabatoge myself. Im good at that. But then again I shouldn't feel guilty for expressing myself. Ash and I had another conversation about our relationship. He's not leaving but it doesn't feel like its going anywhere. Idk maybe Im just scared still because of Micah and that I feel like Ash will be Micah and I always feel like he's ( Read more... ) -
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So what I was freaking out about before is gone. In fact Ash and I went out last night and it was amazing. Idk it was kinda crazy. However now I am starting to sabotage myself again. I keep thinking of all the things that I can do to mess this up literally. Ash is a great guy and my emotional baggage is ridiculous. I keep thinking I am gonna push ( Read more... ) -
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Ok So tell someone tell me why adult relationships are fun? I am already a week into a relationship and I feel rejected and ignored. I mean seriously how does this happen? I mean sure I keep telling myself that we hung out three times last week. I also keep thinking like everything I do it can become a mistake. WHY?! IDK someone tell me. A its ( Read more... ) -
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I have a lot to think about. If I do this I am going all in. I mean it this time. I have never felt so motivated to do something. Its going to be hard. Its going to be long and I need to develop a system that works for me. I still like Ash but now because of our talk I don't feel like getting so attached like I usually do. I want to travel I want ( Read more... ) -
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So my boss is all like your performance sucks at work. Well she didn't say that straight out in fact she said it rather long windily and said she's giving me three weeks to improve my scorecard. Which I am not going to try and fail but however if I do get fired I don't really care. Retail is tiring and frustrating and seriously it would give me ( Read more... ) -
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I'm drunk so I thought this would be the best time to write a a journal update ( Read more... ) -
Script for YouTube clip
Narrator: in the beginning there was nothing and God saw the vastness and the emptiness and was sad.
Narrator: God then had an idea. What if, he thought, if I were to create a universe and place where things with wings and scales and incredibly bad hairdos will reside and thus God with all his might and power created first the light and dark. For ( Read more... ) -
Testing app
So I'm testing the livejournal app for the iPhone. Next week I take all my disaster relief courses and officially become a active member of the disaster response relief team of the American Red Cross. I will tell you how I feel about it when it's done. But it feels right.
The nun thing didn't feel right like this does which I think is important in ( Read more... )
