AHHHHHHHHHHHH, god steven is amazing...he drives me crazy..his lips are so soft and he smells so good! WHO HOO, i am happy as hell! lets keep it this way! heheh i am ganna go to bed, so like noon will come sooner so i can talk to steven ^_^, i spent most of the night over there, go di am so damn happy!

Well, I guess I'm trying to be nonchalant about it ( Read more... )

It's been awhile ( Read more... )

The ICP/Bone/Tech n9ne/KmK concert kik'd ass like woah! We pulled up in fornt of the events center, and ruby tossed wes the keys so he could run around a opent he trunk....we did then ruby floored it, and 80 3 leiter bottles of faygo spilled out on to the ground...god it was great to see them all run for it, and the MADDDDDDD props we all got for ( Read more... )

BETH IS BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i got all kinds of bold and brave and wrote her a letter...told her if she wanted to talk again to give me a call, let my celli....sure enough she said she read it and no les then 2 seconds after she got to the bottom where my number was she said she was running thorugh the house ( Read more... )

they saw him today..he singed the check.....i asked "did he looked liek he was doing alright"....my step dad came back with "heather i am not going there with you, he looked like mike that is all i am ganna say" i was cryi so hard i chocked out bye and hung up....i havent been able to stop crying...what does this mean? it doesnt matter how hard i ( Read more... )

i once again feel dead inside, ther eis no pain that compares to the pain i feel missing him.... does he care what he is doing otme? i doubt it. i sit here and watch my leg bleed as i dig my keys in it...i am going through hell...all for nothing...he will never be back, even if he did come abck, he would never change, we could never be happy again ( Read more... )

*sigh* steven...steven...steven....he drive me up a wall, but i love the boy.i tol dhim how i really felt...he told me his ture feelings and all, he wants us to be more than friends, but he has this shit in his life he has to get stright...he wants me to wait...i told him to give me something to wait for.... and i will wait...hehhe kinda mean i ( Read more... )

ok..so heres how things went yesterday. i drug myself out of bed at noon, got int he shower, got ready and went out to my moms, got there around 2:30sih...called steven, i was upset, ina bad mood etc. so we kinda fought for a second. But then he got over it, came and got me and we went to the texas road house for dinner, food was really pretty ( Read more... )

its my brithday...i am 17.....why do i want to jump? insted of the loads of calls pouring in at midnight....the one call i should have gotten is Mike..on his way home from work telling my happy birthday...he would be walking in the door now, big grin on his face...maybe even a rose....god damnit the tears burn my face, i scream out his name.... ( Read more... )