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Well meaning no-no's
Now I know I should be grateful for the support. I definitely understand comments are well meaning and sometimes out of awkwardness. These are the top things I hate to be told in relation to my fertility problems.
1. You can always adopt. Actually in Australia you can't always. You also must stop all other treatments. Most adoptions require means ( Read more... ) -
Judgement Day
Today I felt something i am unaccustomed to. Judged.
I am struggling with infertility. It is the rhythm of my life, 5.30am daily take temperature, day -5 to day 1 hormone to stimulate period, day 1-5 Clomid X3 (at $3 a pill mind you, day 7 daily sex & ovulation testing until I figure out I didn't ovulate, day 18 blood test to confirm failure to ( Read more... ) -
Call me maybe, baby
Been a while since I wrote, stress management requires it though. My head is full of words that aren't right to say and some aren't right to think.
I wonder if we were other couples if we would have our baby. He thinks that I say stupid things but is it so stupid to wonder why them, why not us? Wanting a baby has nothing to do with getting one. I ( Read more... ) -
No matter how fast I run I can't shake this bad feeling.
I'm still a long way to happy.I can't stand and face the betrayal ( Read more... ) -
This is for me as much as you guys.
Now i just need to find some time to read through the site and post on it cause god knows we all have some unsaid words.
http://www.thankyouproject.com.au/victoria/photos
Love Love
Love Me -
I am and today I feel and of course it hurts....
Thank god because i'm really sleepwalking through my life. 3 weeks until that changes. Though I should update because though I haven't written in ages I wrote the other day ( Read more... ) -
I can't help myself but maybe you can help me, if you wanted to?
I leave in 6 months or I could be miserable for 6 months until I go. i could fight this until i go but WHY? and how? and still? Fuck it, if it gets out of control, you can make it happen, only wold you want to? if not i'll deal with it when it comes.
Head first into hurt. -
New years feelings. (cont)
So where was I at..... I remember now ( Read more... ) -
Belated NYE
I've been eaten by the NYE monster a little delayed but we all know I'm a little slow, it's the blonde thing I guess. I been thinking about it but I'd rather not. Where am I now, where was I last year? A year is such a definate, cut and polished, blakc and white line. That scares me a little but not as much as the fact I don't know if I can decide ( Read more... ) -
I've never been this close to sanity before.
I think this is the closest I've ever been to peace. In an odd sort of way he cleaned my life out for me. There's so many people and places and so much property and pretence that fell by the way. And everytime I think I'll shatter when I have to chatter about the way things used to be, I appreciate the good that came of the boy who took my car away ( Read more... )