Three weeks goes by quickly ( Read more... )

Shawn Jacobs : Caterer ( Read more... )

I think having an epiphany in your life can inadvertently be like drunk dialing. Drunk dialing, for the brain dead, is when you have a little too much to drink and you call all of your contacts in your cell phone. You let them know exactly what you are feeling (good!) and how that affects them (I love you!). It is the most obnoxious trait about ( Read more... )

1. I am really tired ( Read more... )

I had a family function today, my older brother's annual backwoods BBQ in Bayville. LOL. Having "removed" myself and seeing things through different eyes was interesting. I only stayed for a couple of hours, but in that couple of hours I managed to kiss my mom (twice!) and spend a buttload of time with my niece Hailey who is just the best thing ( Read more... )

Damn! Livejournal just told me that I have not updated in twelve weeks. That is such a long time. It's almost too hard for me to comprehend because I just cannot think what I have been doing with myself ( Read more... )

Oh look here I am. What can I say to catch a fella up? I have been struggling with my alcoholism because I am still convinced that it is something I can manage. I haven't done that AA mantra in giving myself up to a higher power. This is strange for me because I easily consider myself a church-dwelling Christian. I have started to become very ( Read more... )

I am totally freaking out inside today. I feel this overwhelming disappointment that just sags all over me like the layer of fat I accumulated since becoming an alcoholic and drug addict. Why didn't I get hooked on meth or something? I might be really fucked in the head but at least I would look great physically ( Read more... )

I have been sober for almost two months. It's... well... it's weird. I have been very lazy. I mean at first I was like like "whee!" ::spin around:: Then I started to fully understand how truly difficult it is to get sober, especially because I did it right at the holidays. At first I found myself being very closeted about the whole thing. I was ( Read more... )

Happy New Year to a special friend of mine who has the distinction of being with me the one and only time I spent New Years Eve in Times Square, New York City. Even though we didn't make it to midnight cuz it was bitch ass cold, I will remember it my whole life. We hit midnight in my father's old station wagon. Crazy life. I love you.