Today is one of those days where motivation is just taking a long time to show it's pretty little head. I have the day off and I have skads of crap to do, but so far I have successfully read a magazine and conquered the internet news pages with gusto. I have read my friends list and now I am updating to further procrastinate the rest of my day ( Read more... )

I am very much looking forward to moving now that everything seems to be falling into place. I cut back on my workload (GASP!) and have actually been spending alot of time home with Pete and my girls and it's cool. I just feel very kinda relaxed in a surreal way today. It's one of those perfect days that started with a terrible rainstorm that ( Read more... )

So Peter is safe for now. LOL. I feel so stupid saying that because the fact of the matter is that I just adore the guy to death. And Frankly, I am not at a place to decide if having kids is right for me or us or anything of the sort. Again that day will come because I know I want me some kids. So there. But, I mean it's stupid to worry about it ( Read more... )

I am admitting to myself for the first time that I am consciously trying to distance myself from Peter. This realization comes directly on the heals of reading another persons entry about the appearance of divergent paths that seem to loom in a couple that I am acquainted with. So thanks, C, for making me face up to something that I've been ( Read more... )

I decided to work nights this week. My schedule is always flexible as long as I make a time sheet out ahead of time, submit 40 hours minimum, and follow through. Generally I work days. I prefer them. However with my recent bout of depression that seems to linger quietly, I decided to distance myself from Pete, not in a bad way, just in a I-have- ( Read more... )

Nothing too exciting to report. I was going to start packing today. Over the weekend Peter was supposed to break down our spare room/exercise room since we haven't been using the equipment. Just for note : I do not assemble or take anything apart in the house because I break it or get frustrated and smash it. I was born without an inclination to ( Read more... )

"However, in this case, the interesting thing is I know the sacrifices will be completely superceded by the positive ways in which my life will change. I will recapture my sense of self which I abandoned sloppily to drug and alcohol addiction. I will be too busy to be depressed over the ways in which said alcohol and drugs affected my body leading ( Read more... )

BEST Valentine's Day ever!! I am going on record with that. It was great amid all of the personal drama that I am going through to be able to reconnect with Peter and take the time to say "I love you". Truly awesome.

In another complete random universe, I met a casting agent at a party over the weekend and they invited me to audition for a role in an independent movie next week. And in another act to challenge myself into getting out of depression, I am going to go, at least for the experience. For some reason, I know that if I can get over myself and go to ( Read more... )

I start the new job on Tuesday... finally. It's been a bit of a wait, but I suppose that's to be expected. I have the opportunity to make my own hours so I am going to stay at Billboard for a couple of more weeks. My last day there is submitted as the sixteenth. I am considering it my safety net. I have two weeks to try the new place and if I don't ( Read more... )