Happy Birthday to me.  I just realised how much my extended family doesnt know me.  I got cards from them all and well I hate football (soccer) and yet I get cards that all LITTLE boys are supposed to like.  Im not a child Im a fucking adult, its frustrating no wonder I havent seen any of them in years.

Work sucks, everyone at work is fucking bummed out which drags me down ( Read more... )

So the lovely Rose gave me a call today on her house phone, silly girl we spoke for three hours and she didn't tell me until the end that she had told her parents.  Gah what am I going to do with her, apprantly though my own mother found out I was on the phone till 3:45am can't wait to deal with that one when she gets home ( Read more... )

Now I'm broke, just had to shell out 1500 to help my parents pay for a new roof.  I can't help but feel I won't get it back, even though they say they will.  I'm considering just leaving her after christmas, theres nothing holding me here and I really can't stand this place.  But that means Im going to have to set concrete plans, my brain goes a ( Read more... )

Fear the shirt ninja!
He stalks in the night.
He also itches.
Needs hugs and humps.

I feel confused constantly; honestly I think it’s more a slight case of fear than anything else.  Strange I've never been afraid of anything, I've always just dived head first into things tried my hardest.  If it didn't work well it didn't work and I could be proud.  Now I'm almost dumb founded and unable to act, to strong or too soft.  Be honest ( Read more... )

Such is the inconsistency of real love, that it is always awake to suspicion, however unreasonable; always requiring new assurances from the object of its interest.
Ann Radcliffe, The Mysteries of Udolpho, 1764

Damn you quotations thingy, so I'm trying to be more open with my feelings these days.  Its weird and well uncomfortable to be honest, I'm ( Read more... )

Brain your fucking stupid, that is all.

Last few jobs Ive gone for Ive aced interviews but lost on experience, I can't get the experience with getting the jobs.  Its frustrating I need a better job so I can save more money and go away.  But know I seem doomed to this shit, fuck.

Yesterday I spent an hour on the phone to Dae, much fun was had chilled me royally out.  I sware that girl has a soothing voice, although she still want let me call her cute without completely blushing.

Fun times n-n