My emotions are all over the place, I'm finding it harder and harder to suppress them and more than ever it angers me.  The whiskey and smokes help more than I'd like to admit, back to bottling it up and being lonely.

Fuck this, I can't win so I'm not going to try.

/shank
/fight
/drink
/smoke
/????
/PROFIT

How the hell that guy got away with that is beyond me.

Any hoooooooooooo!  Work tonight as usual, should be easy though its only the rotary and fuck me the old guys are out by 11pm.  Still I really dont want to go in, bring back the days where I got to do fuck all please!

Oh well much love for all, wish I could collect on those hugs.

So I did finish at 4 am last night however there was much lulz had.  Like Totally high school drama and accents and it was like sooooo awesome, I had such an super time and I made a total tit of myself but fuck it was more than worth it.

I gots me new tattoo today, happiness is getting inked with friends the noise, smell and sensation is orgasmic.


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Today has been a great day for movies, got my hands on Doomsday (hoping its good), 10,000 BC (which looks epic) and of course season 7 of CSI vegas to almost get me up to date with the dvds ( Read more... )

My own frustration at myself shouldnt be vented at others, I just hate talking about myself or have people do stuff for me. Even my own parents who would give me anything if I ever needed it, I can't stand taking stuff from them I more than anything feel guilty for doing it I don't deserve it. This isn't a self absorbed pity part just the truth, ( Read more... )

New profile! Shiney <3

What the fuck is wrong with me tonight, I swear to god I'm bipolar some fucking days and yet I know I'm not it would just be a nice excuse and allow me to dump all the blame. Or is that this week I've lost not one but two good friends at work two of the few people that make that hell hole bearable, Paul our head chef a man through his sarcasm, ( Read more... )