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Just Another Cycle, Keep Pedalling, You'll get there.
I'm tired.
Frustrated.
I wrote this story before it wrote itself.
I thought "tread lightly" and was chastised for doing so.
I tried to point out the red flags
You tried bleaching the color out.
You have expectations, ideas about how your ideal relationship will work out.
I don't have an ideal anymore.
Everything i've ever chased has slipped through my ( Read more... ) -
You Don't Get to Take it Back
On again, off again.
Moody, critical, sensitive, and overly intellectual.
But I made excuses for you over and over.
I read beyond what you said and interpreted what I thought you meant.
So much effort for so little acceptance.
It was unfair.
And I didn't want to admit that.
But even your apologies are loose and meaningless when you assert a lack of ( Read more... ) -
This isn't make believe, we aren't children.
I close my eyes when the words pass his lips; a sigh, a grin & I open them to him admiring my curls and face.
"Sorry, I just needed a moment to enjoy that" and I did.
I've had forever promised to me before. I've promised forever to others as well. He knows that, he feels it in my unpracticed distance.
It's not that I don't trust you.
I hope you ( Read more... ) -
Distances travelled; miles beyond miles left to go.
My son stands in the pale white light streaming in from a frosted window, pretending that his painted rocks are being attacked and I chuckle.
He's going to be five in 3 months and 4 days.
Five?!
How is that possible?
What is time?
It's moments slipped through fingertips when I am not paying attention.
I've been absent minded so often, I just never saw ( Read more... ) -
I don't think anyone reads this...
Except maybe nikki, and that might not even be true ( Read more... ) -
seven years later
or about that anyway ( Read more... ) -
it's been an age
i don't know if anyone reads this still but i suppose that's not always why i write ( Read more... ) -
finality
Nino's (non)ex wife had the baby yesterday ( Read more... ) -
hmm
i'm still a little miffed about the anonymous comments left on my last entry. If only because like I said...I hate being a failure or an annoyance to anyone and I like to try and fix my mistakes ( Read more... ) -
Q & A
So Nino & I almost made it seven months. With some ridiculous amount of drama and arguments and issues. There's a chance we may get back together. He fully believes in that...I am sort of believing in it. I want to be with him, don't get me wrong. But he's got a list of things that need to be taken care of before we'd ever be able to settle into a ( Read more... )