i hope you choke on those words you screamed at me

Silver Screen Lovers

So desperate and time consuming is this filthy habit.
Wherefore every word left unsaid lies.
A thousand empty thoughts.
Racing through my head.
We are just silver screen lovers.
This isn't real.
And this is where it leads me,
going down the same sad road,
with the same sad end.
Where it's always 4am.
And i still can't sleep
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REST IN PIECES

Look at me, my depth perception must be off again,
Coz' this hurts deeper than I thought it did,
It has not healed with time...
It just shot down my spine.
You look so beautiful tonight,
Remind me how you laid us down,
And gently smiled,
Before you destroyed my life...

Would you find it in your heart,
To make this go away,
And let me rest in ( Read more... )

and so im sitting here in my room thinking. i dont believe that its actually gonna happen. no matter how bad i  really really want it to. this week has been crazy. i dont know how on earth i made it through but i did. thankfully. im glad that alot of the drama is eliminated out of my life. i couldnt handle it all. it was getting way out of control ( Read more... )

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so i am obsessed with 'armor for sleep'. things have been different lately. idk its weird. i went driving today. omg it was sooo much fun. i looove chanos truck. its the best. i was really irritated today. like everyone was annoying me. its bad. but yea anyways. someone is a whole lot different now and that sucks. "i miss the old you. the one i ( Read more... )

i got strept throat. yea yea fuckk! prom is saturday. =( im miserable.

ok so its been officially a year since ive been out of my moms. its crazy. and right now i think i have strept throat. it sucks. i have a sore throat, aching body, headache, i get all out of breathe when i go up the stairs, i get dizzy when i get up. its bad. even if my fan blows on my skin..it hurts soo bad. i need someone to come lay with me. =(

ok, so im long over-due for a real update. heres whats been up.
* "C" has become exactly who i thought. and im really disappointed. just when i think someone is different than the rest...they prove that they are exactly the same* on saturday i went with the wonderful miss natasha oleas and michelle to justins show at coffee N dreams. we were ( Read more... )

i've tried. ive tried soo hard. it cant hurt anymore than it does right now. 3 days straight. it just hurts. that aching, throbbing, racing, skipping a beat pain...it just doesnt go away. go to sleep crying. wake up crying. this isnt fair.

stop calling me. stop stopping by. go away. its over. im taking my own advice and im giving up tonight

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