I've finally made a protection plan for myself and have enclosed my heart within wall of iron,spray-painted with the words "All Hail The Heartbreaking Queen Bitch",it's also surrounded by thousands of traps called "mixed signals" to try and deter you,and if somehow you manage to get to the gate you will find it is covered with my favorite weapon an ( Read more... )

It doesn't matter how tan I get or how blon d or how skinny, nothing will ever be able to fix how screwed up on the inside I am.

Day 3 of fast= done, it doesn't seem like that long at all!! I am so proud though, this morning I had such bad hunger pains I literally couldn't get off the couch but i had a cup of tea, 1 nibble of toast (my grnadmother made me!, but when I mean nibble I mean tinisest amount possible, not even 1 cal) and I stayed home from first period until the ( Read more... )

Day 2- of fast- almost complete :) Not weighing myself till Saturday so I don't freak out and stop if I don't make progress ( Read more... )

First day of fast = done, I feel itleast a little acomplished but I know I won't feel good until I've finsihed 10 days wich will be near impossible with my grandmother who grounds me if I don't eat ( Read more... )

!@#$%^&* I grew out of my favorite jeans, I washed them and now I can't sit in them anymore, a month ago they were kinda baggy on me, screw!!!!!!! That's how flippin bad I'm doing. My grandmother said I even gained weight. I'm trying to fight the tears I'm such a disguisting failure. I'm not eating! It's that simple, end ofstory don't give a ( Read more... )

I bought a pair of Versace sunglasses for like 170$ with mone I deffinitly don't have :) and I deffinitly don't deserve them, but It's my birthday the 29th and if I'm going to be seeing Mike I itleast need to be able to fake absoloute super confidence so he doesn't get to me. And designer labels help me do that ( Read more... )

starve binge starve binge +10 -10 +10 -10 I can't just keep control of myself it's either all or nuthing. The only thing is I got a perscription that's sort of like ridiline and it may cause decreased appetitie *crosses fingers*

I really really hope your al doing WAY better then I am!

So I totally binged yesterday and sunday, and I'm back to 150. Every fukin time I get to 144 I freak out and eat everything in sight, what the ehll is the matter with me???? It's likeI want to fail or sumthing ( Read more... )

PLEASE HELP ME GUYS!!!! IT"S REALLY IMPORTANT TO ME! Even if it may seem stupid to you. Ok I'm seeing my ex on my birthday, we're going to go put a gravestone to represent our baby who should have been born that day. I had an abortion in August *yes I know I'm a horrible person* So basically we went out since last November and broke up when I got ( Read more... )