i feel all messed up depressed and happy and then I realized I threw up all the meds that make me itleast somewhat sane so I'm prettymuch an emotional mess...weee

maybe I need help...but I'd rather be skinny

Binged really really bad yesterday, itleast like 3000 cals. And I couldn't even purge cause my grams would have heard me. I did excercise a lot thoguh, 2 hours tennis, 15 bike riding, 2 mile walk. But still, I don't wanna eat today but I think I might just binge and purge, yah I'm already planning that out. I hate purging but sometiems I just want ( Read more... )

About 850 cals today, grrr but I was getting so dizzy I almost blacked out, I'll go back to restricting tommorow. My grandmother and aunt at dinner said I looked fine and I could stop dieting whenver I want, but then when I eat a lot they both look at me like I'm a disguisting pig. Hypocrites ( Read more... )

½ piece multi grain toast-40 cals ( Read more... )

Yesterday ( Read more... )

So bein the jackass he is, since I called him he decided to stop over, he wouldn't even get out of his car cause he's so much of a baby and knows my grandmother would shoo him out with a broom. Itleast he got uglier and chubbier since Christmas, but we both have ( Read more... )

So I'm seeeing my ex probobly for the last time *I hope I have that much sense anyway* on the 29th I know I shouldn't care but I want to look a lot better then I do right now to make him jelous. The gurl he left me for looks like she got run over by a truck but is probobly 20 pounds lighter which he ws so sweet to point out and at the end of out ( Read more... )

So my grnadmother threatned to ground me if I didn't eat dinner, so I had the tiniest bit and then thought hey I broke my fast I might as well pig out...I would like to report I am a dumbass ( Read more... )

Ok I'm back and I'm starting with itleast a 3 day fast