life is good....God is good..He is amazing...i look at past journals and realized how foolish and lonely i was...having faith and church and my youth group has made me feel like i can do anything...im drunk on the holy spirit and high on God....its so uplifting ( Read more... )

it has been way too long since i updated..but this is gonna be short cuz i have to go to work....anywho..i luv school....its very hard but very fun...learning a lot and making a heap of new friends..like all the girls in my class for the most part...a copuple i dont know well...and maybe dont have a good impression of them....but want to give ( Read more... )

guess who has school in eight hours...yeah me...never thought this day would come..but it has..im nervous but ready...its time to start this chapter of my life...God will watch over me no matter what....Speaking of God..he is so amazing..i was saved this past week and it has changed my life....I went to church saturday nite and then again sunday.. ( Read more... )

i talked to charlie last nite..it was weird..he was like i still love u...hes very confused because he didnt realize how much i really did care....i told him he will have to live with the thought that he settled..and what could have been....he didnt like that very much ( Read more... )

fuck charlie..fuck eric...fuck all dick headed sloppy no good bastards who still live with there mommies and have no real lives or anything going for them besides easy ass ugly whores and drugs....u missed out not me...and by the time u realize that u had something so fucking amazing..i'll be off to nyu and dating an amazingly hot ass MAN.....peace ( Read more... )

so these past few days have been really weird...charlie came home and it has been awkward from the getgo...we can talk fine..but the tension is bad...and its not like a physical lustful tension..its a tension like sssssoooo...what now....we talked last nite on the phone and he said that he doesnt know how he feels...alright...explain this..how can ( Read more... )

work is going great and they are talkin about having me work a lot more hours in the next few weeks....hell yeah! school starts in less than 3 weeks...scared to death...charlie comes home in five days...excited to see him..but the one thing i am looking forward to the most? i get my hair cut today! true i am excited...but also scared....i'll let ya ( Read more... )

cmu with jojo was the shit....i had so much fun meeting all of her friends and getting to know a little more about her life there ( Read more... )

how can a guy be so awesome one day..and then two days later act like u have an incredibly contageous disease that will cause him to die if he were to speak to u? i don't know...but it's messed up...i'm tryin to be that cool girl that every guy dreams about...u know the one that loves beer, up north, strip clubs, dirtbikes, sports, alternative rock ( Read more... )

Went to cedar point on Tuesday..it was amazing....Monday nite i hung with jo before she left.....eric came over around 11:30 and was able to witness us crying as she left...he hugged me and told me it would be ok......me and him went and got some taco bell and listened to will smith on full blast....came home...started watching a movie...and fell ( Read more... )