im going to stray to today a little cuz im feeling extremely depressed....... i came to school to do a project with my leadership group. it's me, crystal, eugenia, shauna, and stivaly. We are going to an australian university called victoria university and we have to find out all the prices as if were going to live there for 2 years. well in the ( Read more... )

well all things were going.....ok.....not perfect but ok cuz obviously we werent planning on getting together..... we talked about that.....and well i still hadnt told him i love him cuz i was scared of his reaction but we both said id probably eventually happen.....and of course me the dreamy girl had to go put her hopes up right then and there ( Read more... )

So... we made love.... i made love for the first time..... just hearing him say im going to make love to you was amazing.... i totally fell.... i fell flat on my face.... i fell soo madly in love with him....... it is amazing..... he was so different...... so after that i started getting a little overwhelming....better word....psychotic lol...... i ( Read more... )

So it's been forever since i updated this crap.... the layout pisses me off cuz it doesnt show my stuff but i have no other choice... they have some new interphase that i have to find out how to override.... w.e. so yeah i need to let off some steam... i need to vent lol.... well whats happened.....  i broke up with michael about 8 months ago.... ( Read more... )

Hey ..... well todaii my mom came home at like 8..... and i had gone to sleep at like 3 cuz i was watching kill bill 2..... awesome movie........so we both slept for a longggg time..... lol we woke up at like 1 something.......i had a cup of milk and then my mom made lunch.......it was pretty yummy......then i came back to the room and fixed up a ( Read more... )

The song is so awesome i decided to put up the lyrics so u all understand watt im trying to say....... well yeah my bf went to the friggin carshow without  me cuz i am grounded and im sad cuz it was suppose to be special  and im crazyy bored.....just like i predicted all alone in a dark garage.....with nothing but my dreams, emotions, and a ( Read more... )

watt do i do? watt do i say? when i have no feelings? and im roting away..........i feel so useless......so careless.....so unworthy.......so depressed and i have no reason to feel this way........ i don't kno watt to do.........well let me fill u in on my life ( Read more... )

Wow... its been a long time since i updated this thing.... yes its cuz im hooked on my boyfriend.....on myspace.... and flvs.... and finally school has soo much crap to do its crazyyy.... well when summer starts im prolly gonna update a lot and tell u watt happened during my senior year and how it was awesome cuz really i dont have the time.... ( Read more... )

HOMECOMING WAS AWESOME!!!!

Me and mario broke up......... 2 1/2 years but we've broken up 5 times....and i just dont want commitment or any kind of relationship right now... is that wrong? ....i dont think so...im giving it time...i hope he gives me time too....i need it to clear my mind......and decide for myself.....if i want a relationship or not.....but right now i dont ( Read more... )