It's been so long since I've posted here, and it seems as though history is repeating itself. Once again, I am torn up inside over breaking up with a girl. This time, though, I'm somewhat happy ( Read more... )

Argh, I wish I could just turn off my feelings sometimes. Become completely numb. At least then, I wouldn't be in pain ( Read more... )

Yes, I got in trouble with Jody again today. It was odd, though. He didn't do his usual thing and blow his top, he actually had a very long talk with me. Well, and wrote me up. But I was expecting that, anyway. I don't know why I am so blind to such obvious things. I like to think that I'm intelligent ( Read more... )

I am free. My pain is finally gone ( Read more... )

Well, today when Daron gets off, he and I are heading down to Safeway driving school to see if I can get enrolled. The school trains you in driving, and the last lesson is for you to take the driving test. Woohoo! I might be getting my license a lot sooner than I thought, which is a good thing ( Read more... )

Taia called me. For the first time in almost a month, she called me...But she didn't call me to help me...She called me because she was hurt by Tom, and wanted someone to vent to...Why me...Why does she have to hurt me even further...Taia, I want to be your friend...I want to make you happy...But you are making me miserable...I need hope...I need ( Read more... )

You know what. This charade is not lasting. Look, my true feelings...I love her. I love her, damnit. I can't change that. I love her for what she is and what she will be tomorow. No matter how much she hurts me, all I want out of life is to be with her. She is the one that completes me...I believe she is my soulmate. I am not giving her up. I never ( Read more... )

Well, it's done. I told Taia she's not good enough for me, whether she cares or not. And it's the truth. I deserve better. So it's done and over with ( Read more... )

It's been so long since I've needed someone to talk to. Taia has always been there to fill the gap, but no longer. I am alone. I am now cut loose. It's okay, though. She's happy with this Tom guy who's a major alcoholic. If she wants to get with him and just be dissapointed, that's her deal. He's not going to give up his addiction for her like she ( Read more... )

It's been so long since I actually wrote in this damn thing. Never actually thought I'd have a reason to anymore, but it's 5 AM, I can't sleep, and no one is there to listen to my problems. My problems, you ask? Taia and I are over. She has found someone else. I knew this day would come. I feared it, but I knew. I'm not exactly the best guy to ( Read more... )