alright so something is wrong i know it. because wen i cant sleep till 5 wake up shower, i mean i sit in the shower for about 2 hours then drink some water and go back to sleep .... and not say anything all day or eat for 4 days...theres something wrong. i think its the hole billy thing. i am not sure, but i am depressed and this sux

WHY CAN'T I JUST TELL YOU........?!?!?!?

I NEED TO TELL YOU BUT YOU WILL TURN AWAY

LIKE YOU ALWAYS DO, AND HAVE DONE

HOW DO I FIX THIS

INCREDIBLY CONFUSED

NOT WELL

why cant you just come back?
jACKIE

jons now gone, he wont be back for atleast 35 days. which means i shall have a stick up my ass  because i hate change. and yeah i took sarah to the landing and we walked over the main street bridge, i cant ewait to get my apartment. i think i wanna live in st augustine again, like i did that one summer with billy. and i like walking around busy ( Read more... )

ahhhhhhh. so caleb started shit with billy that i once again had to fix. now i guess this time it was my fault cuz i was tlaking abotu him 24/7 and how much i loved him and then caleb was like i am just going to talk to him, well billy didnt say veyr nice things about me and i never put him down, i dont try to talk bad about anybody. so yeah it was ( Read more... )

today was good./ sean cooked me breakfast wen i woke up. hes really nice. then jenny adn i hung out, we wanted to go to MSI but i had feild day, i got payed 12 bux an hour. i gotta give 50 to val, 30 to mike, i mean i gotta give everyone money. maybe get jon damn wheels so we can all go to the skate park again. but yeah i set up antennas and shit. ( Read more... )

ok heres last night ( Read more... )

I don't mind spending some time
Just hanging here with you
'Cause I don't find too many guys
That treat me like you do

Those other guys they want to take me for a ride
But when I walk they talk of suicide
Some people never get beyond their stupid pride
But you can see the real me inside and I'm satisfied
Oh, no, ohohoh...

[Chorus]
Even all the gods ( Read more... )

so last night was horrible. i mean horrible in the sense that it was absolutly great and then i became emotional. ok so once again jenny was right....i got attached and i shouldnt have becuase i knew i was oging to get hurt and now i am. i am being quiet and i am tired of this. therea re 4 people i am attached to and the very few should feel ( Read more... )

so yeah i am sitting here in jennys grand parents and yeah this really weird....but ok. i watched children of the corn and yeah not much more to say,. there are no dishes to wash so i am typing. well i guess i shall go sleep on the couch i gotta wake up in 2 hours anyways. hope everyone is having a great exciting night..

jackie

so yeah. tonight was a disaster. jon made it better. like he always does. hes so wonderful. tomorrow should be ok. everyone is goign to the movies but i am going to stay home. i will wait for jon to call, if he does. and yeah i guess i am going to go to sleep. hope everyone has a wonderful night and a great day tomorrow. bye

jackie