Hurt and spread through causing an outbreak ( Read more... )

Ahh such sweet memories are laid to rest. Carly has passed on today. I am in so much shock that I really am just on replay and going through the motions. I know she isnt suffering anymore but its my baby. I have lost two babies this week and I dont know if I can continue to breathe. Fuck! This all sucks so bad and I am filled with so much hurt that ( Read more... )

So I have officially just given up on trying. Why? I have now gone from three kids to two and the second one has about a week left. I dont know what the fuck to do anymore. After work yesterday I stopped by the vet to pick up Carlys ultrasound results which was preceded by the vet telling me about surgery is the only option or these anitbiotics. I ( Read more... )

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There are several reasons why people hate Mondays and today was one of those Mondays that I would prefer not to live through again. I in the first place didnt get to bed till midnight last night due to the fact that carly was just not getting better. I get up at three, get ready and head to work. I clock in at 4:45 am and stomp out of there at 7: ( Read more... )

Gahh! I am so fucking worried about my cat at the moment. When I left this morning Carly was all bouncy and playful and you know her usually stuck up self. I get home this evening and she is lethargic, wont meow, wont eat, and wont drink. Fuck! I looked up her symptoms online and for everything I have found I can safely diagnose her with a ( Read more... )

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Erin is officially an idiot. Oh yeah! Who goes out in the sun without putting sunscreen on and doesnt take gatorade with them when they are allergic to sunlight. Oh yeah, me! Now I suffer. Fuck ( Read more... )

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Fucking things up like I always do. I thrive on chaos and cannot let myself be happy which is a bitch. Why cant I just let people love me? What is so fucking wrong with me? Grrrrrr! Fuck it all! Justin and I have now decided to have a trial separation for six months and see what happens. Fuck, I fucking fucked up one more person that tried to love ( Read more... )