so once again going back to that man has put me in a shitty position. this time around he can't blame me ...although i'm sure he'll find a way. i was working full time, managing the house as best as one can. dealing with his mood swings. taking his shit. dealing with his threats, absorbing his verbal abuse and still trying to maintain my own mental ( Read more... )

...it seems that you can always feel "up" with good friends around....i'm very lucky to have them....now if i can just form that colony on an island in the carribean that we could all live on ..with of course fabulous living quarters and a night life that would put NYC to shame...then i'd be the happiest woman on earth...i should get on that whole ( Read more... )

...i'm actually going back to tending bar....hilarious...but neccesary....my mom's not doing so well and i really need to have ALOT of money right now...so for the time being i'm putting jobs that involve my college education on hold...also...it's right in riverside and i have a few friends that work there so- could be worse....i started a new ( Read more... )

who am i kidding?....i've never been able to be intentionally mean or cruel in my whole life...so i guess that whole "using my powers for evil" thing won't work out ....but man i AM over it...it just feels like if there's a jerk out there within a 10 mile radius...i'll find him...no really...lately i've really been trying to have a positive outlook ( Read more... )

i'm tired of being "nice"...what good is it doing me?...i'm sick of worrying about "you"...you wouldn't care if i died tomorrow...i don't even want to keep on trying to be "a good person" anymore...what fucking good does it do?....good girls get raped,robbed,fucked over,treated like shit,taken advantage of,cheated on,abused......FUCK IT!!...i'm ( Read more... )

was pretty nice this year ..i met another nice fella...and we had a great time talking and drinking whiskey last night...dancing was the best at tsi last night....tonight i get to see devin davis play at the eclipse...i'm going to miss this place when i leave...not the place so much as the friends i've made here...i can't wait until new years...it' ( Read more... )

..was really fun...i got to talk with someone who i've thought was pretty sweet before...now that we talked more..i know he is...but i think it may freak him out that i have a strict"no boyfriend" policy right now..i'm not sure if that's going to change anytime soon...he'd probably have to walk on water to make me even think about changing my mind ( Read more... )

that you have been so hurtful...that you have abused my feelings for you...that you have no idea that the anger i feel comes from trusting you and you shitting on it...it sucks that you seem to be without malice...that you have no mercy...i'm sad for that...it sucks that you're one of "them"...predatorial...i never thought i would think that about ( Read more... )

stop bullying my friends...nobody is interested in drama...YOU CREATED IT!!! just leave us alone...and tell your pals we don't care about thier shit either...your ridiculous....so POOF!! fucking dissapear...i did nothing but be kind to you and all you can think to do is act like a scumbag ....typical...no wonder people say what they do about you ( Read more... )

apparently the universe hasn't handed me enough reasons to be a bitch ....i came home last night and he wasn't there....i don't care anymore....i'm not sure wtf is going on and i'm not sure i want to know....my existance certainly doesn't hang upon my relationship status...it just pisses me off when you trust someone and they fuck you over. i've ( Read more... )