On the outside a tree, nothing more
standing alone with withering branches
trying desperately to plant it's roots deeper
far enough down that they won't allow for backsliding

On the inside a seed, opening up
attempting it's best bloom
looking for hope in a time of desperation

Just so you know ( Read more... )

teenage eyes ( Read more... )

i'm sorry I won't be able to make your pain go away, just like you couldn't help me with mine
you may not see me for a long time, or ever again for that matter
i've loved all of you and never thought for a second i'd cause so much damage or unintentional pain, I only hope you can forgive me.

Yesterday went completely wrong ( Read more... )

I'm never included in anything my friends do, they're on their way to Athens and no one even called. No one ever calls me, because i'm a burden, an inconvenience. I don't want this life anymore, I truly don't. I'm sick of never being good enough, i'm tired of always getting in the way. Maybe you would all be happier without me, that's what I feel ( Read more... )

Holding out and holding on, I don't know how much longer I can last through this ( Read more... )

I know hardly anyone will pay attention to this, it doesn't matter. As these tears roll down my cheeks all I can say is that my life has brought me many things, and i've been many places. I've known too much, i've seen just as much. I've been happy, i've been sad, i've felt all the emotion anyone ever feels. All I can honestly say I know is to make ( Read more... )

So, I just woke up and spent like an hour getting my accounts on-line back. Someone decided it would be funny to change all my passwords and fuck with my stuff. Dumbasses. The only one they couldn't figure out was my e-mail. Last time this happened the person wrote a blog about me supposedly 'coming out'. Yeah ( Read more... )

I don't know whether it was all the cross-dressing men, or the black men smiling at me that made me happy tonight. Don't ask.

I've realized something, i'm too worried about pleasing you. All of you, it doesn't matter in the long run. As selfish as it sounds.
If i'm not the problem there is no solution.