leave me alone
and sleeping less every night
as the days become heavier and weighted
waiting
in the cold light
a noise
a scream tears my clothes as the figurines tighten
with spiders inside them
and dust on the lips of a vision of hell
I laughed in the mirror for the first time in a year

a hundred other words blind me with your purity
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not that you wanted to use
it seems untrue now
but the funniest thing is
it fits you now
to a perfect T

you may never understand this affliction
although you feel the effects you feel
bruised now, body and mind you feel
used now, almost all of the time
been abused
abused
abused

Sunday morning in the aisle with my brother
watching the men in black tell the ( Read more... )

could be why I'm never sure if I ever really got it
and I guess it's maybe easier not to think about it...

a house a car a family and friends
yeah all it means to justify ends

but sometimes... I wonder... in the back of my mind
sometimes... I wonder... if I'm wasting all of my time
sometimes... I wonder... if I'm putting off my real life...

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more 'specifically the two best art mediums.. film and music. it always bothers me when I'll discuss film or music.. with another person that enjoys a certain film or band.. only to find that they've maybe only seen one movie.. or only heard a couple of songs from that artist/band.. and that can be pretty shattering and heartbreaking after they ( Read more... )

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at first I was feeling more like Sideways but as Jack said to Miles it was too "morose come-down" bullshit for me really to posts a scene of. in the end I went with this one. it wasn't as pessimistic or hopeless either. I mean I really have no reason to feel so really at this moment.

me: okay..
dad: you should have a bite to soak up that alcohol in the liver.

my stupid dad sayin' it in his foolish "Bobbb Franicevich" voice.

aaaaah. now to hear my profile song againn.

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ehh. so I was hopin'... I could count on my bff.. durin' the time I was feelin' all nauseated!! no dice... but at least someone came along. sometimes it almost feels like for those nites that happen.. it's like things come in full circle... eh only 'cause of earlier last month initially it was that... gah I was sooper sour and pessimistic about ( Read more... )

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now I'm not one that exactly likes that whole "ignorance is bliss" approach but somehow I think this is alil different.

hm. I guess one way to put it is the "ignorance is bliss" approach is the sort of bliss only for the ignorant.. it's not exactly the same as say.. goin' to meetup with someone for the first time and you really wanna wear this favor ( Read more... )