It's so easy to get knocked down, and it takes so much to get back up.

Sometimes I wish I had a time machine to kick past Genna's ass. For all the good and bad the past 10 years have brought me, I feel like one decision has brought upon more bad than good.

I just don't see my life going anywhere, or having any meaning. I've spent the past few month just trying to keep moving forward and telling myself things will be better. I'm running out of momentum, and I feel like I'm stuck in a dark maze with little hope of escaping.

Back in middle school, the song Kryptonite by 3 Doors Down was a hit single. A friend and I loved the shit out of that song. We hung out almost every day, and it was on the radio A LOT. It was our favorite song. The basic of the song, at least to me, is just being there for someone, through the good and bad ( Read more... )

Rejection of any kind just reduces me to a worthless pile of negative emotions for the rest of the day. Fuck people.

I'm only now starting to realize how little I mean to so many people. -shrug- whatever. And yet, I find my self still socializing with these people. I shouldn't care so much. I'd like to think it stems from child hood nonsense, but it just seems ridiculous to site that as a reason. What is more likely is that I'm just a shitty person, so people don ( Read more... )

I don't even know what to do to fix the mess I'm in.

I just kind of faked my way through today. I've been "done" with today since about 3pm.

If I were a hermit, then people would no longer disappoint me. I suppose I should be disappointed in myself, for choosing to continue to surround myself with people who disapoint me, and keeping those people in my life.

hrmf :/ I need someone special in my life. But I'm not at a juncture in my life that really allows this. "Hi, I'm 26, don't have a job, and I live at home."

When I say it that way, I'm pretty pathetic.