I think it is about time to update this mofo. Things have been rather odd/bad. Danielle hurt her knee somehow and she has to go see an orthopaedic doctor and she's not gonna be in school till like friday :( I miss her already. I've started workin out again. I'm benching like 135 but it was my first day so I guess its not that bad. Prom was good. ( Read more... )

I think it is about time I updated this crazy mofo. Not much has been happening. Felt kinda depressed a few days ago due to thinking of the past. Thinking only brings pain for me so I'm gonna stop that. Well when all that happened, Danielle was sweet enough to walk to my house and make me feel better :) A few days past and nothin happened. Parents ( Read more... )

Well I think its time I updated this bitch. Life has been treating my alright. I'm with Danielle again, Sam and I are on good terms now, I still haven't done my english homework that was due on monday, Chemistry I'm barely failing, w33d is good, and so is booze. I have to work on friday, this blows. I need to do my english homework, its worth like ( Read more... )

Today was...good. I went to school. Chris said I was crazy cus of all the shit I was sayin. Oh well. After school I got my hair cut off. I look like a skinhead, then we got a pack of smokes, got some mcdonalds, and went back home. Played around on the computer. And this is where my day got better. I was talkin to erik, and at the end, I asked him ( Read more... )

Today was ok, could've been better. Woke up at 8. Didn't want to go to work so I called out. Talked to Sam, now she won't even talk to me again. ever. It is probably for the best but I feel so betrayed by her. I need a girlfriend. I need to move on. gah I don't want to go to school tomorrow. These feelings of depression are the worse I've had so ( Read more... )

Today was better than the past few days have been. I got up around 8, listened to my parents argue about the stupidest shit (like always) was supposed to get a hair cut, mom was bitchin about my dad driving her car so that didn't happen. So I went to work. got there for 10. Had to do register ::cringes:: I hate doing register on saturdays. Yay a ( Read more... )

Today was long and it seemed like it dragged on forever. School was ok I guess. Took a test in history, I feel I did well. Rest of the day was just like the others. Same shit different day. I haven't talked to Sam since yesterday. Shes always upset now it seems. I don't know what to do. I want her to be happy. I love her so much and I don't know ( Read more... )

Well today I think I may have thrown away a perfectly good near-by relationship with Danielle away for one with Sam that is 30 mins away. Danielle and I would have been able to hang out everyday while I dunno how often Sam and I would be able to hang out. I don't know if what I'm doing is the right thing to do. I hate having mixed feelings. I love ( Read more... )

Today was good for my first day off from both school and work. I slept till about 12, which felt really good. Played on the computer till about 3, Danielle called me then and we ended up hangin out(not complaining) we walked around, got some pizza (I did, she just had a soda) stared desperatly into the liquor store, walked back to my house and " ( Read more... )

Why can't I deal with this like a normal kid? Why is it so hard for me? Why can't I do anything right? Why can't I be like everyone else and be normal. I need help with this..I can't do it on my own. I admit it. I NEED HELP! will someone help me? this is no joke.