Well I got my report card today. 1 d 2 a's 1 b and 1 c. Not too shabby. Oh well. I hate paranoia. I keep getting this feeling Sam doesn't want to be with me. I thought all this was over with but I guess not. I'm probly wrong tho. I really hope I am.

Well today was exceptionally good. School didn't suck. Got home, played around on the computer. Went to bass lessons learned how to play wailing paddle by big d and the kids table. Now here is the good part. Sam and I are together again!!!!!! I cannot be any happier!! well thats all for today kiddies
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Thats right kiddies. No more pain, crying, cutting (well maybe) and no more hurtin Sam!! I have gracefully stepped down and now I am under the friend status. No more crazy shit, no more suicide threats. it is over bitches! NO SCHOOL TOMORROW!!!!!!1!! (had to add the one in the for good measure)
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Well today was good at the end. I did something I never thought I would do. Sam and I are just friends now, and it was my doing. I'm actually happy about it too. I think its gonna help clear up my head for a bit and hers too. Lots of snow today, and cus of that I left work early. My paycheck is gonna suck alot. Oh well I get to sleep in tomorrow ( Read more... )

Well today was alright i guess. its friday, woo. Well when I got home I did something I shouldn't have. Lets just say it pushed Sam away from me even more, which is just what I need. I miss her so much. I don't want to hurt her but I keep thinking I'm going to and I'm going to hate myself for it. I wish it would all just end but that would be too ( Read more... )

She's not coming back to me. I know it. I've been pissin her off alot lately. I can't help it, I'm naturally a paranoid person. I love her, I truely love her with all my heart. I don't care what people say about me. I'm not scared to admit I love her. I just have a sick feeling she doesn't want me back. Why won't this end? Am I going crazy?

So you see I've gotten this far ( Read more... )

I miss her

What?! thats right kiddies I'm updating. Well yesterday totally sucked MAJOR ass. Work took fucking forever to end and before work I was told the internet was being cancelled. Now to top that all off, Sam and I went to freehold mall after. I wish I just stayed home. She doesn't know if she wants to be with me. After I got home we broke up, but with ( Read more... )

I miss Sam :(